Doubt and Discouragement

I am 49 years old and I have started over in a new church plant. This has been and still is the most frighting thing I have ever done. The last time I started a church I was 33 and didn't know anything. I didn't worry about if it the church would succeed and I didn't worry about my future. I was 33, what bad could happen and if it did I could always get a job. This time it is different. I know too much and the reality of being old and unemployed is troubling. Doubt and discouragement have become my constant companions, insecurity is a way of life, and the fear of failure is very real. Now, before you think I am crazy or looking for some sympathy let me push on this.
I believe that God wants to do something in Tallahassee that came only be explained by Him. God wants to get the glory for this new church and not me. I am desperate and God wants me there. God is not the author of doubt and discouragement but He will leverage them to get me to stay dependant on Him.
I can't place my security on titles, positions, or money. I must trust God to provide. I can't get my worth from what people think, I must please God alone.
I have also learned that my life is an example for others in the life of faith so I must follow Jesus for your sake.
There are nights that I can't sleep and wonder how I got myself into this. But in the morning I still hear the call of God.